Yesterday I met up with two friends from college, and though we did not discuss anything specific from our college days, I guess it got my mind into a college mode. There is no other explanation to why I would see a dream yesterday night, about me joining college again to improve my marks! As if all the responsibilities that I currently shoulder are not keeping me busy enough! And as if bettering my engineering marks are somehow going to help me in my job today! But a dream is a dream and since these thoughts did not occur to me inside its magical world, improving my academic record seemed the most important task I had at hand. Okay, be it. But what was worse that I was miserably failing in this task. 

By the time I reached my class, the professor had already started with a very important and terribly complex topic. The equation on the board and the ones present in the lecture notes handout (hey, our professors never used to give anything like a handout – but a dream is a dream and we have to be true to it). Everybody else in the class seemed as clueless as myself on what was being lectured, but they did not share my feeling of seriousness and so I felt lonely. Finally, I summoned enough courage to stop the professor and tell him that I could not follow his proof of the theory given in the handout, and he said he has not even started teaching that theory! That was very reassuring, indeed. 

And then, my thoughts got darker. How will I find time to write all the assignments? What will I do for the final project? There were many other tough questions staring at me in the face, and all I can remember now is that the answers to them were not clear. I would have struggled more, if the sun had not risen when it did, waking me up from this nightmare. I smiled at myself with the satisfaction that at least in a dream, I seriously wanted to improve my academic record.